23rd

The year has been kind towards me.

I can feel the difference because last year I was significantly upset and unhappy, and after every dance prac I will return to my room and feel the sadness cloud looming over me. This year has been kind and every time I return to my room from dance prac, I feel relaxed apart from the endless amount of work I have to complete. This has a lot to do with my brother, I'll admit. We haven't been siblings for the past year but he started being nice to me in 2017 and we started interacting more. I must say, this really lifted my mood a whole lot. I guess this must be how people feel when they break up/find a significant other? Except mine is my brother because my family really means a lot to me. A lot more than I can imagine. Every single thing they do affects my mood and I can't even explain why.

There was one point in December that I was feeling rather down and I took a really long walk at midnight. I brought along a little notebook and my iPod, and switched off my phone. I thought about many things that night, and it really cleared my head and mind. I learnt to let many things go, to not expect, and to cherish the genuine people that I have around me. I returned home liberated, and I really felt a burden off my shoulders. Every day from then on was never down. (Every day before that night, was contrastingly disappointing and I was constantly sad.) I think long walks are my thing. It helps me relax, washes away all the distractions and cleanses my mind. 10/10 would recommend.

I think my goal this year would be to cherish the people around me more and to show more appreciation. Many times I have thought about it but never put into actions, and now I will try. I'll start by taking on less commitments than I can handle.

Thank you friends for being by my side all this while. <3