It's twenty-seventeen.

It's the twenty-third day of twenty-seventeen.

I dropped a class last night. It's quite unlike me to do something like that because I love to go for classes, and I also love to overload myself with things that I cannot cope with. Recently, I've been feeling too tired and stressed out and I decided to give myself a break, only after much persuasion from my friends. I emailed the professor to tell her that I'm dropping her class because honestly it feels a bit sad when your students leave you. It's like getting a confirmation that 'my class is not good enough for you to drop other classes or bear with the amount of work'. But I think I did the right thing, and I feel liberated. Sort of.

Also, after much persuasion from a friend of mine, I decided to apply for summer studies in Korea. Firstly, I don't like Korean food. Secondly, I don't like Korean culture. Thirdly, I don't like Korean boys. I'm not so sure why I agreed to apply anyway but I do want to experience an exchange life in my years of study and I guess this was my only other chance after rejecting the Hertfordshire offer. Still feeling pretty bumped out but I guess I'm not rich enough to splurge like that. Sometimes I just don't get it. Some people can afford to spend $15k on one semester of studies whereas I can't and they still say I'm richer than them. Hello I am a poor art student paying her student loans. Can you just be thankful that your parents are supportive of your explorations of the world and stop chiding me for not being able to afford something I really want?

Omg but I really wanna go North Korea hahahaha. But the tour is ex AF. Let's contemplate about life.

Don't get me wrong, my parents are rather supportive of me. They encourage me to do things that ar good for myself, and they want me to be a better me every year. They just show it differently. I guess you can call it tough love. They want me to pay for my own school fees, to make me feel more independent and take more responsibilities over my studies. Since young, I've always had to beg for them to put me in tuition classes, to pay for my tuition fees and to let me continue taking extra lessons. Right now, I'm quite stressed out about the $28k loan I have to pay off once I graduate from university. I've calculated time and again and it is physically and theoretically impossible for me to earn $28k before I graduate and even after I do, it will still take some time before I can earn enough. I'm quite stressed oh god. Also, my mum told me that I can start looking for a place to lodge in once I graduate hahaha. What is this world coming to. Hello mum this is not America.

This year, I have a real resolution. It's not exactly a new year's resolution because I started it last year but I want to hold it through twenty-seventeen.

Be more thankful than sorry.