Change.

Change. It's a something that will happen eventually, but not something everyone looks forward to. I'm not talking about materialistic changes such as changing a new phone or moving house. I'm talking about changes we go through in life. Growing up is one of them, but it's so gradual that we don't usually realise it until we look back on life a few years down the road and realise how much we've grown and how things has changed since then. Little habits that built up along the way are changes that we make subconsciously, and we get used to them. Habits become a routine, and if we need to change back to how we were a few years ago, we would naturally repulse against it. Making new friends isn't a change, but forgetting old ones is. Sometimes I forget about how these people have been there for me for a large part of my life, and when I look back, I feel a sense of guilt and regret. Some times it gets a little too late to save it, but other times you just need to break out of your shell and try. And I think I would like to do that. Some people are easier to approach but others, I'll feel a little apprehension because I'm not sure whether they still want me in their life.

Change is something I'm going through right now, a lot of changes in fact. Too much for me to handle and I guess I'm trying to find an escape pod and return to the comfort for the old. I'm trying to do too many things at once and I ultimately get nothing done. I've become indecisive and I'm getting annoyed at myself. Change isn't a good or a bad thing, it's just how you deal with it that matters.

"Life's a gift and I don't intend on wasting it. You don't know what hand you're gonna get dealt next. You learn to take life as it comes at you... To make each day count." - Jack Dawson, Titanic