Hello again.

I keep telling myself I wouldn't blog until after finals but I really need to procrastinate filming because I'm scared. I'm scared it wouldn't be as I expected (and I already have a pretty low expectation for it which lowered tremendously from the start of conceptualising until now). My confidence for it dropped ever since the second consultation with my prof because I think he thought my idea was crap. He didn't tell me directly though because he's damn nice and he kind of likes me so he just smiled and said "Think about it carefully. 50% leh!"

Sigh. Oh well, it changed a lot since that consultation though but I didn't show him anything from then on and I told him I'll email him but I didn't. Too scared to hear anymore comments from him anymore.

My actors have been damn nice though. Damn professional too. The first night I filmed for 8 hours from 9pm-7am (with a bit of break in between to charge my lousy battery) and one of them had a quiz the next day. Last night I filmed from 9pm to 5am, another 8 hours, and they've been damn patent with me and my anal requirements about each shot. Really damn thankful to them. Have on last scene to do before I get cracking on my editing, which I think might turn out really bad. ): Hopefully I can pull this off well enough.

Was really looking forward to Friday because I thought I can finally meet non-NTU people but oh wells. Kind of disappointed at first because seeing people out of NTU usually give me a more relax feeling as they bring me out of the "school mode" and make me forget about the impending deadlines. Oh well. The day didn't turn out all that bad after I saw on my prof's paper that I might possibly get an A-. I mean, it's not as good as an A or A+ but it's still an A. And more importanyl, it's on one of the mods that I thought I wouldn't do well because I kept producing quite shitty work. Even though it is the mod that I spent the most amount of time on because of it's nature. I still am very much not happy with my products most of the time. It's 3D modelling and it sucks.

Sigh. Had a short nap earlier on to catch up on some sleep so that I wouldn't die.

Three more submissions to go! Two of my favourite mods, yet they are incidentally the ones that stress me out the most because I really want to give my 101%.

Until after finals. <3