Horrible.

I feel really horrible. I'm not sure how to describe it but I just feel like everything is wrong. Everything that I've done is a mistake and everything that is happening is a mistake. I don't even know what exactly went wrong but I just feel that I'm not who I'm supposed to be. I'm not me. Not the person I used to be. It's been quite a while now. I've started to change and it has been years and they've accumulated to make me who I am today. Somehow I just don't really like where it's going. Sometimes I do. Sometimes I don't. I don't know. I irk myself. Most times I am just really disgusted at who I've let myself become, inside and out. 

I don't know, maybe I'm bipolar. 

Some days I just feel like working my ass off to achieve something. Some days I just feel like giving up on myself entirely.