jacqiezhannack.

I don't blog about my day. When I blog, it's usually because I feel troubled or emotionally overwhelmed. Sometimes, I undermine the power of self-reflection but it has proven to be quite helpful time and again. 

I'm just feeling relieved now. I guess the Great Eastern thing was really taking a toll on me, it was such a burden the past entire 12 months that I brought discomfort upon myself, and bad omen followed. The past 12 months were not satisfactory nor fulfilling. I'm just glad I've been rid of the burden. 

I kind of feel more oriented in life afterwards. Even though I may not know what I would like to pursue in future, I feel more motivated and am actually doing something. 

The past few days/weeks, I've slowly been talking to more people and replying more people's texts. Sorry if I ever accidentally ignored you for an entire month or year. I was just tired from socializing I guess. 

I'm learning to be more open about myself to others: I never ever told anyone anything, and have so much pent up within myself. Keeping all these thoughts inside myself made me insecure and unhappy, I'm glad there are still friends who stayed on despite my having MIA-ing back when I was a freshie. 

(Someone messaged me and I replied and I lost my train of thought.) 

I applied for a part-time job at NEX. It's fairly near and the pay was better than expected. I just have to wait for them to get back to me. 

Talked to yim and jub last night about forming a start-up and we said we'll take 2 years to see whether we're happy with our lives first. It's kinda of scary but also exciting at the same time. I wouldn't want to be an employee my whole life. 

Let's get busy!