Lost Boy

I am a lost boy from Neverland
Usually hanging out with Peter Pan
And when we're bored we play in the woods
Always on the run from Captain Hook
"Run, run, lost boy," they say to me,
"Away from all of reality."

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Peter Pan songs are my favourite. 

Jesse McCartney once sang one too. 

This is a beautiful song. 

Imagine sitting in the car, 

and it's raining. Not heavy rain, 

not drizzles. But the kind of rain, 

that makes people think, 

the kind that makes people sad. 

Those are my favourite kind of rain. 

I was driving to school one night, talking to my mum on the passenger seat. It was nice of her to want to fetch me to school. It was the first time we drove the entire journey without turning on the radio or flaring at each other. At the last few minutes just before I filter out of the expressway into NTU, we talked about my brother. The boy whom I have not spoke to in 8 months. The boy whom used to put his family before anyone. The boy I used to know. He's still a boy. All the stupid things he's done, all the childish little acts. I teared a little, and almost burst into tears, when my mum told me about something he recently did. It was a very trivial action, but it spoke so much about how he has changed, how unappreciative he has become. I used to say I would date someone like my brother, but now I wouldn't. He has made me realise what kind of man I wouldn't want to date, and with that I would like to thank him for it. 

I want to date a man who puts his family before his girlfriend. Because that means that when he marries me, and I become family, he would put me before others. And honestly, even if we don't get married eventually, at least I know I didn't date an asshole. And I know becoming a part of his family would have been a really special thing to him. I think being appreciative for the people who made you who you are today is really important, especially if they've been there for you your entire life. 

Going back to my life now.