I'm not okay. And I haven't been for a while. I'm not okay, but I am going to pretend I am because I know it'll all be fine one day. Not now, not tomorrow, but one day. I don't know when 'one day' is, and I don't know what it will be, but I'm gonna be okay.
I'm gonna be okay because I know one day, what I've been worrying about will not matter anymore, it'll be irrelevant and useless. One day, the people who made me as anxious or upset or excited as I am now, will not be in my life anymore. It's not okay, but it has to be. I'm not okay, but I have to be.
The people you care about may not care as much as you do, but care anyway. And learn to let go.
The people you love may not love you as much as you do, but love anyway. And learn to forgive.
Forgive, but never forget.
Growing up, I've learnt that there are few people in your life that you can keep forever. I used to think that out of that 100 friends you have, there'll be 5 that you'll keep in your life forever. 5 that you choose to be your forever. Now I know that out of these 5 people, there will only be 1 who will choose you to be their forever. And forever means being there, but not always. And it's okay, because the world is a lonely place. And we're all gonna die someday.
I'm not letting go. Just adjusting my priorities. What goes up must come down.
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Let's talk about something more light-hearted. I guess I'm not as desperate as I thought I was hahaha. Recently I thought I would agree to anyone who would take an interest in me but there was this graduating senior who did but I ignored him. Hmm, his hair was on point and that's one of the must-haves. Or maybe I just want things I know I cannot have hahaha.
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