jacqiezhannack.

I feel like I need to talk about my life because I learnt soooo much these past few days and soooo much happened but I don't really know where to start. It's not the kind of events that is spectacular and I need to show off, but it still means something to me and they are sort of eye-opening and liberating. After taking the courage to slack off work, I haven't found my momentum yet but I started to see things in a different light. It's not a bad thing and it's true when they say taking some time off is good for you. I never really understood that but I guess now I do.

There are people I want to hang around but the people that they hang out with, I don't really approve. But I can't do much so I have to stop hanging out with them so much and try to find myself again. I miss them, but it is quite refreshing to be with other people once in a while. I guess life is going to be like that most times. You give and take a little, and it's fair. It is.

Watched Mean Girls (while doing "work") with some people today and I guess they are the kind of people I want to be with forever because we can be retarded most times but serious at others. But we'll see because I don't think I've quite gotten the grasp of life yet and there's always something to learn.


Had a talk with a friend today who's going into film, and he reminded me of why I came in in the first place. I really wanted to go into film since a long time ago but I never dared to dream about it because of the fear of not achieving my vision. I still don't believe it but people tell me I should go into film or product design because I'm 'good' at it but honestly what I've been producing is not my best and I know I can never achieve my vision in both aspects so I chose not to major in them. I'm not sure if viscom is the right decision (and I never did but that's a story for another time) but for now I guess i'll stay. I once read somewhere that said that we often think our work is never great because we had this preconceived vision for it initially and if it isn't met, we think what we produce is rubbish yet others find it amazing because they never thought about the idea nor concept before and it is just amazing how you made something from nothing. (Was that from tumblr though)