Money problems

Being a PAF(poor as fuck) art kid, I feel more stressed than I'm supposed to be. Zoom lens are out of my budget for now(at least the ones I want) and I've always wanted a macro lens but never really went to look for any. Researched a little bit today and I found out they also cost a bomb?! I've always liked macro photography and I want to explore more in that area but I guess I just have to suck it up and move on. I am, after all, a designer and not a photographer.