My feels for you

Honestly, living with you is extremely difficult.

You are always living in your own world, not caring about how other people feel or are doing. Not even your husband, not even your own children, and not even your own parents.

You think too much and don't give people their freedom or privacy. You don't let him have his own personal life outside. Just because your social circle only forms a triangle now, doesn't mean he doesn't have a life outside of the family. He has friends too. He is sacrificing so much time with them already yet you are always throwing tantrums whenever he wants to hang out with his friends, just for the night. He just leaves for a few hours and you get mad. He only goes out with them like once every week or fortnightly yet you are still constraining him. He doesn't even complain because he knows how paranoid you are about it. All you allow for is for him to attend business meetings and such, nothing more. It's kind of painful.

You don't really care about how your children think and feel. All you care is results, results, results. All you want is them to be some fucking successful kid so you can show off to your triangle of friends. You don't care how the words you say are discouraging to your kids, you don't care how you not acting like a mother hurts your kids, you don't care when you kids need you and you just let them suffer in silence. That is why we don't come to you when we have problems, that is why we don't tell you everything about our lives, that is why we distance ourselves from you sometimes. We know there is no point in sharing our problems with you no matter how serious it is because we know you don't really care, we know there is no point sharing our lives with you because we know you will criticize everything we tell you, we know there is no point being overly sincere and attached to you because we know you only care about yourself. And on occasional times when we do want to open up to you and tell you how we feel, you fucking shoot down everything and gives us more reason to think that you do not care, and when we tell you how your words stings you just stab it in further by emphasizing on the words you said. When we tell you how you should not take everything lightly and should actually care about us, you feign ignorance and actually just shut your ears. We feel it. We know you're doing it. We all have a communication barrier with you not because we don't want to try to talk to you, it's because you are not changing to be a caring mother/person and not showing that you care about anything other than yourself. You always twist the words you say to make them fit the situation. You always lie to us when we ask you simple questions. Why can't you just tell us the truth in the first place. It isn't even something hurtful or serious, it's just a simple question. It shows that you don't even listen to what we say.

You don't care about your parents. Every time they call, you take the easy way out and ask someone else to pick up the call and say you're busy. When they buy you something, you sometimes scold them for buying it for you when you didn't ask for it. When you "visit" them, it's not even to see them; you're just going there because the babies are there and you want to play with them. You ignore your parents when they talk to you, you just merely nod your head when they are asking you a question (which requires more than a mere yes/no) and continue reading your newspaper and eating your stupid food. And you do all these in front of your children. Is this how you want us to treat you in the future? Is this how you want us to treat you now? Because we totally can and will. But we know that it isn't the right thing to do so we're not doing it. However, bear in mind that there is a limit for our tolerance.

That is all for my rant.
My feels for this matter extends far beyond these words and far more than just these incidents but shall just end it here.