It's good to be a happy kid again. (:
I feel relieved that I'm not tied down by anyone or any one thing or emotion anymore, and this is the time when I feel like I am really enjoying life and living life to the fullest. Hmm, I that I was sort of influenced by the people around me, and I'm really glad that I have such wonderful friends. I don't know what I've done in my previous life to deserve this, but I'm just really glad I have them all.
I am really lucky to be in my class, and am really lucky to have them as classmates. I think my JC classmates are people who are really happy about their lives and they really appreciate things around them, and I feel honoured to be friends with them and I guess their happiness rubs off on me as I spend more time with them. I'm starting to like life as it is and accept what comes at me, and face the challenges, not alone, but together with people around me. However, I still find it hard to share problems with them because I feel like my problems are trivial and will turn out to be a burden to them. At the beginning of last year I was really afraid of being in this class and was really afraid that people might not like me, but now I just have the i-don't-care-whether-you-like-me-or-not kind of attitude. I just really want to be nice to people but I just seems to always pass off as being irritating and sometimes rude. Time to change.
There's this other side of me which is still sinfully evil and mean but I'm trying to suppress it now, hopefully with the right company it will be gone ^^
Just feel really thankful to many people now and wanted to write it somewhere but I'm too lazy to write it down and since no one probably reads this so I shall just post it here. HEHE.
Iris, thank you for always being there for me and listening to my problems and helping me solve them. Sorry I can't really help you with your problems and I'm not really tactful when I speak, and sorry if you're sensitive to them sometimes! Hopefully you don't mind hehe.
Laura, thank you for always encouraging me whenever I feel like giving up and you really made me reflect on what makes me happy and inspired me to strive for what I want. Thank you for not giving up on me as a friend even though I am a lazy bum and I really appreciate your encouragements! (':
Sarah, thank you for being cheerful all the time and making me laugh hehehe^^ And sorry for making you stand all my cold jokes and you have to look at me laugh at my own cold jokes HAHA. Love how you always know what you want to do (oh yeah its called being decisive haha, which i dont have...) and being my table partner now!! (:
Samantha, thank you for encouraging me when I feel like giving up on stuff and thank you for not judging me HAHA. I am very weird and do strange things haha. Thanks for helping me with school work sometimes and also thanks for not giving up on a lazy bum like me as a friend, sorry for being irritating sometimes (most of the time actually).
Jia Yim, thank you for being so optimistic even when I know I am dead meat, your optimism gives me hope and make me stronger and want to do better in life, and what ever I am supposed to be doing hehe. Sorry for being lame with my cold jokes and I am sometimes very rude because I cannot control myself): And I love the way you try to cheer me up with your cold jokes, sometimes they are not really cold but i just dont feel like laughing :/
Pearl Lee, thank you for being the cute pearl you are and making me feel happy about life and encouraging me to not give up on my school work and other stuff. You look so small and petite and cute but you're actually really strong inside and I like your determined personality (: Thanks for being an awesome table partner and I am going to miss sitting beside you ):
Kellie, thank you for always being so cheerful and happy about life and always bringing a smile to my face with your innocent thinking (yes it is quite innocent haha) which is a good thing i guess! because you seem to be really happy about your life and you're really observant and smart leh, why am i not born smart like you ): But sometimes your innocence is too overwhelming that I get irritated, and I'm sorry for that because it's not your fault and I'm just being moody ):
Renee, thank you for your insane laughter ALL THE TIME, during lunch, recess, lectures and even tutorials! Your laugh is so contagious that I also start laughing without knowing why you are even laughing hahaha. Thanks for bringing joy to my otherwise really dull and mundane JC life!
Isabel, i miss you soooo much! Even though we don't talk much and nowadays when i see you in school you look really tired... <3 Hope you'll have better rest in the months to come, and don't fall sick! Oh see i went out of point. Even though we don't talk much, I feel like we're still very close and I really like that feeling(: Hope it's that same for you too! Really miss you and I want to talk to you soooooooon! Thanks for bringing happiness to my life and I feel happy just seeing you around in school, and I am serious! (not trying to be mushy ah, but i really do!) Sorry if you feel like I'm not making an effort to talk to you but our schedule is really different but to make up for that, I must admit that whenever I'm in the toilet I think about you and Iris HAHAHA. miss you so much! <3
Shu Chuin, hey babe, thanks for being so encouraging when i failed my tests, but sometimes your encouragement comes in guailan flavour sia. (must use singlish because christine chen makes it sound so cheem!) hehe love your determination and i must say it did rubbed off on me in sec 3 and 4, but now that i spend lesser time with you, it sort of just went away):
Siang Ler, thank you for being so guailan and your cold-but-quite-funny jokes! (: Sometimes it really makes my day so much better, and you taught me to be who i am and not care if people judge me. I mean,m you didn't really teach me lah, just that being around you and seeing how you treat your life and accept things as it is, i learnt that i should be appreciative and not care if people are judging me. So yeap, thanks for letting me learn that from you!
okay i've done so much reflecting, but i think only one person will read this right. actually i also dont know lah. only one person tag what. and i made sure to go her blog to tag first before posting so she will come back and see my post. soooooo strategic right!! (: btw your para is the longest ahemahem. still have got some more stuff to write but my brain is shutting down now, and i can't really rmb it so... bye <3
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