The End and The Beginning

YAY so im just gonna post about some reflective stuff which has been on my mind... 

But before that! Go read this post here where i updated the simpleplan post! (: scroll to the bottom for the updates. 

And... Life. (HAHAHAHAHA) 

okay anyway im posting cuz my parents went out and my siblings are also out so i have some private time to do stuff i want and not be studying, although im feeling very guilty already. never study and never exercise and eat alot and watch alot tv. okay wait i shall go wear contacts first, the specs is super irritating ): 

HAHA okay wtf just weighed myself and i lost 1kg over the past week from waking up at 12pm and eating and watching tv. okay maybe this week hasnt been so bad after all. 

I shall attempt to type proper English ah, but abit of Singlish here and there also never mind one hor. 

A few days ago, while lazying around the house and just basically lying on the floor and using my phone, saw a glance of the tv channel at discovery or something my Dad was watching... And then it went a little like 

THE END OF _______ CRISIS
THE BEGINNING OF A NEW _______

But somehow when i saw the words "The End" and "The Beginning", i was a little bit frightened. "The End" is such a sad word, and "The Beginning" is such a scary word. Both are slightly intimidating i guess? Then it dawned on me that i should cherish what i have now and not waste time and frivolous activities like games on my iphone or watching dramas. And then i started thinking how a new beginning will affect my life and when i will find my beginning in something meaningful. Yes, in just a matter of seconds, a lot of thoughts rushed through my mind and i was slightly confused at first and then i decided to blog about it and share it with (the very little) people who actually reads my blog, and of course also for myself to reread and think about it in future. 

That night was also the night i fought with my sister over the wardrobe, but honestly i didnt feel guilty about quarrelling with her because it wasnt my fault at all. But then somehow i want to patch things up with her... :/ I felt weird for a moment and decided to return to my room to do some packing... 

Yeap, just a short paragraph I wanted to share with you guys and my future self hahaha. 

Anyway, there were a lot of after thoughts following that few moments of intimidating words on the television screen. HAHAHA. Like what my END will be like, after JC life etc. I don't really wish for anything to end right now, not even JC life, because i'm afraid of taking A levels. ): And i don't want my new life of being in uni or whatever path i take to begin yet! i don't want to be old! ): 

Yeah, so that's all folks! (:

PS: oh yeah, i forgot to mention. I kind of few bad about posting the previous post, because it sounded so harsh, especially the title. ):
But im just gonna leave it there so i can feel guily next time hahaha. It makes me sounds like a bitch myself too. :/

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